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holy crap, its only six hours into saturday and i'm already broke. DAMN YOU EXPENSES! seriously, wtf?

i still have yet to buy bday presents for: Tanya, Eara, Aslynn, Dana.

i have $35. this sucks.

i seriously need to start getting more than four or five hours of sleep during the four day/nights i work. especially when i have to work for thirteen hours straight. scerously! see tabby? see what you made me do?

if you see me tommorrow, it means that i am awake, and if i am awake you should give me a swift blow to the head, preferably the kind that induce unconsciousness. you can leave me where you found me, just make sure i'm not awake.

i'm supposed to be capturing video stills from bank frauds, but my eyes feel like they belong to a 3 days dead 80 year old left to rot in her apartment with the airconditioner going full blast. i cannot look at grainy black and white images anymore. i cannot look at this computer screen anymore.

my mother thnks i keep secrets where there is actually nothing but blank space.

i was thinking about quitting smoking. i haven't seriously thought about that for years. i realized IF i quit smoking, i wouldn't have to get a second job. i don't want a second job. so if i do quit smoking because i don't want to take a second job, it means i quit smoking because i am lazy. lazyness is a reason i can get onboard with. maybe. we'll see. i love you smoking!

there are sooo many ads for the "new season" of the lword all over transit. i feel like they're taunting me.

okay, okay, i'll go do my job for another few hours before i end up back here, even more tired, sick, bored and crazy.

i should sleep until i work, and then work until i sleep, and then sleep until i get up for thanksgiving dinner. maybe a bottle of wine and a few cigarettes to go along with the turkey feast that is supposedly happening at my home. and then sweet sweet triptophan and alcohol induced slumber. sleep, slumber, unconsciousness- i can almost taste you.

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[tala82.livejournal.com]

1. don't worry about a b-day present for me. you're broke. instead, you can do a striptease for me to the mighty mouse theme song.

2. quit smoking. you shouldn't always be broke with the amount you work already (aka. you shouldn't have to get another job... esp. not for something like smoking... maybe for saving up for a new computer or writing workshops or a trip or hanging with your friends more... )... and you really don't make that little money per hour, and your rent is low enough that even with your student loan payments, you should still have a bit of extra money... ro's been trying for about a year now... so you don't have to quit now but at least pretend you're quitting and get the whole chain of reactions that will hopefully result in your quitting smoking started...

3. yup -- i got the aslyn thing (in reply to your other post)

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quiting smoking eh? I think its beyond fabulous of an idea. You wont get sick as much...have more money...and as a wise, sweet girl suggested, have more money for something bigger and better and tres cool. Or, just be loaded and wave your ever-flowing coin in everybodies face?