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[anomic_blue]

someone who knows, please define for the me the difference between a soliloque and a monologue - is it just context? i can't remember.

astounding luck for a couple of days, financially. suspect it is winding down, as ever. still more than enough to recover from the unplanned umemployment, if not prepare for the future.

had joshua (tala82 you know who i mean) touch up the tatoo on the back of my neck - expand on the basic concept if you will. it's still very simple, straighforward - probably boring to most, but i quite liked the sketch he came up with and look forward to the healed version.

trashed the house as i attempted to arrange internet access while experiencing some violent moodswings. not the best combination. currently have broadband on my poor, tired laptop and am waiting for tabbytabby to convince her debian pc to accept the modem, and hopefully the wireless router. what that entails is yet to be fully revealed. feeling from moodswings linger on, and i am reluctant to examine the emotions this has created- their validity is suspect and i'm in no condition to test.

contrary to my previous, drunken, post i continue to negotiate my existance, accomodating two opposing sides within myself that each pull towards their own ends. i feel like the poor mideval bastards tied to horses and ripped apart - but i haven't reached the breaking point yet. everything is standing perfectly still, excluding of course, the slowly ripping tendons and muscles creating silent agony inside my body. or maybe i'm being overdramatic.

finally read "the passionate mistakes and intricate corruptions of one girl in america" (were you waiting for that, k?). it felt like ripping off pieces of my own skin to get at all the blood and gore waiting on the inside - is that the mark of a good book? i don't know, but it's going on the shelf.

still working on "dark age ahead", a truly wonderful book - i just keep getting so angry (that overdeveloped sense of injustice i suppose) that i have to take breathers and read less frustrating, more fluff fiction or play mind-numbing videogames.

i can't wait for this temper to run it's course in my body, even if it means scrabbling to put the pieces back together once more.

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[tala82.livejournal.com]

k -- random answers and remarks to your post...

you ARE overdramatic... that's why i love you... at least partially...

this is childish but... you went to joshua without me??? i feel almost like you had an affair... hmmm... i suppose i forgive you...
... and on another ... scolding note...(i'm sorry)... didn't you say you couldn't afford to get new shoes, contradiction, and a tattoo fix-up??? hmmm? hmmm??? (on a positive note, i can't wait to see the healed version of your tattoo... and good choice in tattoo artist... joshua kicks ass)

what else... oh -- i'm really not sure if i'm right, but i think a soliloque is basically a monologue, except that it occurs in a play. when one character speaks on stage... i think it's not to the audience either... it's just the one character speaking... maybe something about a revealing speach or something like that. i always think of soap opera characters... when they speak aloud to themselves to reveal to the audience their not-unexpected evil plans... a monoloque is ... damn... well, i think of a dramatic monoloque... 'my last duchess' by robert browning is the most famous one i think... i sort of think a monologue would be a soliloquy if it were performed on stage... except perhaps a monologue is addressed to the reader? i should have looked this up before i posted. sorry... but the thought process may be useful?? i dont' know...sorry...

what else...k i think that's it. oh -- we'll talk about negotiating existence during our taxes date -- if that's ok...

[anomic-blue.livejournal.com]

i only went to joshua without you because the circumstances were unusual - that's also how i could afford it.

we will talk indepth when you come over for our taxes date.